“Impartial”



Happy holidays!  I hope everyone has had a chance to enjoy family, this amazingly warm weather and a small or large cup of eggnog.  Some time off allowed the creative juices to flow for me.  Enjoy! xoxo

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“Impartial”

I came to you whole the other day
to discuss an important matter
one that was greater than the weather
and even more pressing than the pink slip letter
when it was given to me last November

As I began to explain the immediate emotions at hand
the matter of my brain decided to unravel
The tender parts went in their various directions
paths laid down in their own dimensions
predetermined courses of action that I previously forgot to mention

The pink, gushy parts of my cortex
traveled across the room to visit you
a trip reminiscent of every jagged part of us
an adventure that hit every sharp edge
of this beaten relationship

You called the coroner as I was still speaking
as I was explaining the hurt caused
as I was praying for you to find the route to the hammer
to slowly fix these broken parts

Isn’t it funny how the world only sees black and white
how you were quick to push me to the other side
how I wanted to exist as gray matter before you
and you wanted to bury every exposed gash

You told me to lay all of my pieces
in a hole that you dug for me
but you didn’t explain what to do
when the pieces only fit partially

So now I’m in this middle ground
I’m swimming with these sharks now
and I’m trying to figure out how to move on
as an impartial woman existing imperfectly